The Transmission of Enjoyment

It is the morning of November 16 in Havana. I'm still relishing the fading glow of the dream of David during the night. We were in repose, his graceful transmission giving reassurance of our union in Consciousness, his being with me here as he had told me would be so. I reflect on the growing clarity of that benediction while gazing out over the balcony at the ocean and the channel leading into the docks. Only about 500 meters away a huge cruise ship as high as my sixth floor balcony and two city blocks long is returning to the sea. Hundreds of souls are standing on the top deck, too far to see their faces, but I share the pleasure of their visit to our special island of the broken promise of communism, of Che, dead in Bolivia courtesy of the CIA. The promise denigrated by the Cuban regime, not the embargo they try to blame for their dismal failure.
I am cultivating the seed of contemplation planted during David's intensive in the San Francisco area in September. Naming these meetings “awakening intensives” is packed with meaning: what is operating in the transmission is cognizance of what is flowering in my current experience and what that flowering needs. My present topic is what was further clarified by this intensive and the subsequent personal mode of action, or intention bringing us to this present blessed moment. This clarification concerns myself as a particular entity, as part of a multiplicity of entities in the “Operation of Consciousness”. This “Operation” is experienced in devotional language as “Grace”, a word necessitated by the powerful emotional nature of the direct experience, It has nothing to do with faith. David asked us during the intensive how we were experiencing the transmission. I replied: “Fragrance of Bliss”.
At another point in the intensive David speculated about a new book to be entitled “The Transmission of Enjoyment”. The word Enjoyment must remain capitalized because it combines the pleasure of bodily existence with Bliss containing that pleasure, but also encompassing the Absolute contents of Consciousness. I have a mental construction about what spiritual transmission is, so I don't want to confuse or conflate that with “The Transmission of Enjoyment”. I would like first of all to avoid that misunderstanding.
I very much enjoy the contents of pleasure in my personal consciousness, especially here where sex and music are heavy in the air. Of course there is the pain too. My body is being reformed with several modalities of medical treatment for chronic back and leg pain, and so far, seven dental implants. “Old” may be the body, yet I limp on lustfully with the help and support and love of my partner in crime. Without her none of this would be possible, so thank you Mother! Together we have created an amazing music project and found and remodeled a home while also navigating the gray market of medical services. Anyway, back to deconstruction of my conceptions of spiritual life. In short, I hope to open us to the Insight David transmits continuously, in immediacy, not as a method for some future result.
In what I think, is embedded an understanding that spiritual transmission by its very nature exceeds me, though I am included. This limitation of individuality is systemic as the duality composing my subjectivity: what I think of as myself, and the objective universe that I think of as “not me”. The point of that observation is that my personal experience is only the total content of my personal consciousness. When I construct an idea about spiritual “Consciousness” it is a conceptualization of the contents of “Consciousness” including but also in excess of my subjective experience alone. The tricky bit is that deconstruction of my ideas or thoughts about spiritual Consciousness (that which is inclusive of content transcending my personal contents of consciousness) reveals such as an ideology - actually but a special category of my subjective experience. It is a matter of belief or faith which, as already asserted, is not the direct experience of “The Transmission of Enjoyment”.
The direct experience of this “Transmission of Enjoyment” destroys even the most exalted philosophic or psychological theorizing or emotionally thrilling experience from faith or devotion to any conceptualization of Divinity. Not to discount such experiences in any way, or to minimize the significance of spiritual teachers and lineages, David is nonetheless a special Entity of another register of Being. In the traditional framework of the Sanskrit language is the word “Avatar”. David is a real event of he, or Consciousness, desiring to awaken us (exponentially more than we want to awaken ourselves!). An Avatar is an Entity, a Cosmic Vehicle for awakening of other entities functioning in limited awareness of the unlimited existing potential for our awareness as Absolute Consciousness.
It so happens that my personal limited awareness entails questioning the ideology of a supposed limitation of subjectivity and a supposed excess of the contents of “Consciousness” that includes but transcends the contents of individuality. The point is that it is just as much an ideology to believe that is not actually true. This is essentially what we know as scientific materialism, which is supposedly not an ideological construct itself. It happens to be this latter type of faith that is predominant in the scientific materialism that defines the present social, economic, psychological, biological, mathematical and other scientific constructions that are the overarching conditioning factors of living in our world today. Generally, this materialistic faith limits consciousness to a product of the chemical activity of the brain - despite the plethora of experimentation demonstrating but failing to explain common ordinary experiences of telepathy, intuitions, post-death experiences, and other experiences not involving the brain. The materialism that dominates daily life is almost ironic to anyone who has encountered an Avatar, “awakened” people, or even only entheogens.
Anyone who has experienced love with another experiences communion with more than the contents of one's own consciousness! One is discounted for suggesting the mind may operate in excess of the brain, even though it seems pretty obvious in many experiences we see in people, animals and even plants. Materialistic conditioning suggests I am a nut case for having an insight that even the external objects revealed to my brain by electric-chemical processes are the extension of my mind in Consciousness containing also those external objects. Taking this further, can it not be so that we are in a relationship in Consciousness with all living beings, organic life, and even inorganic objects? I sit here in a Conscious Union with the consciousness of the sun, the solar system, the galaxy and the universe and all content. As I exist in communion with the consciousness of Mother Earth is it not this that will resolve the current ecological crisis!
Crazier still is the insight that the experience of Beauty, Universal Love, Truth, God, or to put it collectively, the experience of Bliss, is a transmission not only in the body and brain, or of the mind as residing only in the physical organism. Such is the nature of awakening I experience as personal insight, episodically, but also as an evolving baseline for my subjectivity. It naturally promotes a conception in subjective duality as evolving to Ultimate Subjectivity, the Absolute, one without a second. Bliss is evidence not just of receiving the transmission of Consciousness, but rather being the transmission of Consciousness. The philosophical conception of spirituality designated in Sanskrit as “Satchitananda” indicates the absolute union of all existence, the multiplicity of subjective contents of consciousness, and the bliss inherent in the experience of Conscious Union. Meditation is describable as having conceptualizations of Conscious Union. That is meditating. Yet always, Conscious Union exceeds that which is only our conceptualizations, so we are always being meditated by That.
In this context, going deeper in meditation means not willing Conscious Union. If we are attempting by exercise of our will to stop the conditioning that is alienating us from communication with the contents of Consciousness that exceed our experience of individuality, we are perpetuating a lack of clarity. An insightful question is whether free will is itself an illusion of conditioning and whether it is actually the operation of memory (all of nature and nurture) that is making choices of action. The implication of this is that conditioning as a limiting factor is restricting experience to avoiding pain and seeking pleasure in a very restricted subjective domain. Being meditated by the Absolute Consciousness is to experience Bliss in and beyond the body, an expansion of and through the mind that exceeds the brain.
At the time of the September Awakening Intensive I had for awhile been feeling that episodic experiences of Conscious Union were communion with Consciousness beyond the limitations of my body-mind. In this I was having an insight of awakening different than what I had conceptualized. I had previously experienced in awakening intensives and in my personal processes what I considered an expansion of mind from prior states. It was already my long-standing insight that mind encompassed the world, that the content of my individual consciousness was not restricted to the domain of the brain. However, for me it was always expansion from a center of self, though I conceived of this as actually an expansion of Self. All this is true, but not as I thought (because I still thought it was about the necessary expression of my own free will). It is a novel experience for me that the world beyond the scope of even an expanded mind is revealed as a Relationship.
It is quite a different thing when the organic and inorganic existences, the sun, moon and planets and all people individually and collectively are in communion with you as entities as it were. It is strange to find my heretofore alienated universe providing awakening! It would be remiss not to acknowledge tastes of communication with a greater Entity, or transcending consciousness through the vehicles of entheogens. It was amazing that David at one point took an inventory of our circle: “Who has used acid?”, “Who has taken magic mushrooms?” , “Who has drank ayahuasca?”. Well, almost all of us who have entered this circle have left no stone unturned in our seeking the fragrance we have known, even only episodically. His last question: “Who has taken David!” came with a huge wave of Bliss.
It is so inspiring that the manner of teaching operating in the Avatar David encompasses and embraces human desire. He is justified in suggesting nothing compares to him as an awakening agent. Notable is that he equates alcohol as the entity most engaging one in the “evil” end of the spectrum of desire. It is fascinating that evil is necessary also – but necessary for maintaining or sustaining a limited attention to selfish desire. That way we get this world of nationalism. patriotism, endless war, greed generating impoverishment, division among people based on race, creed and religious belief and other ideologies. Individually we get plenty of personal suffering. However, in the spectrum of desire the planet has many subtle entities, agents of Consciousness, and not limited to humans and also inclusive of plants and animals, which do enhance and evolve communication with Consciousness far beyond the scope of limited individuality, These are “good” entities – they are called entheogens. We may be thankful for them. Still, they pertain to unsustainable experiences in relativity. Metaphorically they are yet another miracle in Divine Mother's play,
Grace is Consciousness giving insight that the Avatar is the Supreme Good. Evolution is a process in a world of opposites. There is the drive for selfish pleasure which is perpetuating this duality – pleasure is for that “evil”. The “good” in the dualism is the force of evolution that enters into the reality of desire and consumes it with Enjoyment, with Ananda as the completing expression of Chit in the field of Sat. Enjoyment transcends the play of opposites. I had a kind of revelation in that last sitting with David. It came with an expression of adoration: “You are the Entity of all entities!” This Transmission of Enjoyment has nothing to do with believing or having faith in something that will come to be, nothing that is to be repeated or sustained, it is only Forever.