I accidentally found a book...

I accidentally found a book: "The Essential Mystics" which I bought many years back, it didn't resonate much with me back then, and words were just fading away so I didn't find any joy in reading. So I trashed most of my books.
As I opened the book, I began reading. It was Hindu writings and I wept my eyes and heart out, cause I it was Mother, She "had me" all this time as she owns me now:


I honor the God and the Goddess
the eternal parents of the universe.

The Lover, out of boundless Love
takes the form of the Beloved.
What Beauty.
Both are made of the same Nectar
and share the same food.

Out of Supreme Love
they swallow each other up,
but separate again
for the joy of being two.

They are not completely the same
but neither are they different.
None can tell exactly what they are.

How intense is their longing
to be with each other
this is their greatest Bliss.
Never even in jets,
do they allow their Unity
to be disturbed.

They are so averse to separation
that even though they have become
this entire world,
never for a moment do they let a difference
come between them.

Even though they see,
all that is animate and inanimate,
as rising from within themselves,
never do they recognize a third.

They sit together
in the same place,
both wearing a garment of Light.
From the beginning of time
they have been together,
reveling in their Supreme Love.

The difference they created
to enjoy this world
Had one glimpse of their intimacy
and could not help
but merge back into the Bliss
found in their Union.

Without the God
there is no Goddess,
And without the Goddess
there is no God.

How sweet is their Love!
The entire universe
is too small to contain them,
yet they live happily
in the tiniest particle. . . .

Jnanadeva says,
"I honor the union of Shiva and Shakti,
who devour this world of name and form,
like a sweet dish.
All that remains is One."

Embracing each other,
they merge into One,
as darkness merges with the light
at the breaking of dawn.

When we discover their Unity
all words and all thought
dissolve into silence,
Just as when the Universal Deluge comes,
the waters of the ocean, and of the Ganges,
will merge into one. . . .

A reflected image disappears
when the mirror is removed,
Ripples merge back into the water
when the wind becomes still.

When sleep comes to an end
and man returns to his senses.
Now my individuality has come to an end,
and I have returned to Shiva and Shakti.

Salt gives up its salty taste,
to become one with the ocean;
I gave up my individual self
and became Shiva and Shakti.

When the covering is removed,
the air inside a plantain tree
merges with the air outside.
And this is how I honor Shiva and Shakti -
by removing all separation and
becoming one with them.


I realized back when I was in my early teens, and didn't yet have a spiritual practice, I had a burning desire to become a Hindu, and I was so sad one can't convert to Hinduism, but has to me born into is...

I am considering travelling to California this winter. Not sure how I will live, stay and travel around. Or how long/short I want to stay. Maybe I'm too unstable to handle travelling.
I only wanna go there because of David of cause. Also I would love to be in nature.

Does any of you guys have an idea how much it costs to stay and live in San Fransisco? Or a bit outside of town?
I probably can't handle living in the town for long, but have to go out in countryside to remain some degree of sanity.



By Cristiana

i will join u in San Francisco this winter to hang out with David a bit,,, I will let u know,,, All will flow in the most perfect way for all involved,,, i trust in THAT.

By Cristiana

i will join u in San Francisco this winter to hang out with David a bit,,, I will let u know,,, All will flow in the most perfect way for all involved,,, i trust in THAT.

By Cristiana

Thanks for sharing that. What a wonderful book!

Its more expensive than most areas unfortunately. The bay area in general is. There may be means of staying in the area inexpensively. I dont live or spend much time in the bay area so i dont know. Years ago working in the Santa Barbara area where its expensive. A co worker stayed in a shelter. He didn't like staying there though. I heard some would pitch tents in the coastal range also. Its either that or you pay rent and don't eat because the rent is so high. I say this in a positive way in that even though some of CA has become a place that most people can't afford its still possible. In San Diego many people would park a motorhome on the street and go that route. They would move it once in a while to be legal. Im not trying to suggest or not suggest anything. I'm just attempting to tell you alternate means I have seen over the years. Not sure if any of it is applicable in the bay area or not. Sorry, I just don't know! And gosh, i wish what I mentioned sounded more positive.

In any case I wish you luck in whatever you do!

By ryan

When I posted that I saw no other posts. perhaps Christina knows something? Sorry I'm not much help!

By ryan

Hi, there. I've recently learned of this organization. Might be an option??


Good luck.


By LLRogers --

Lyn in Oakland, CA

Amazing your poetic output in your posts .. that sustained emotional condition. Blissfulness that produces poetry, that is sweet. In this poem, I was caught by your depiction of the third, the human condition it seems you mean and the wonder of that merging into Shiva-Shakti, that two and that but the One. Anyway that's what I hear and feel in your poem.

By Stephen