suffering to illumination

I have been in a cycle for sometime now of deep fear etc. within the last few days God only knows when, it dropped and it seems as though a awakening has occurred. Through out the day i feel illuminated and light and seemingly all i need to do is find a moment of silence and it becomes magnified if at all distracted from, David I'm in in awe of you God in human form i really resonate with all that you are i have an element of Christian mysticism in me that can very much relate to you like they say having a personal relationship with christ (Jesus)or even being a bride of christ, which is also what you teach i also find find Kriya Yoga to be very helpful as a practice for me lately (Ive done many different ones over the years) Thank you so much for coming into my life :)