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By shakteem 3 years 6 months ago

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After last night's meditation, I was moved to post a song I've been working on entitled, 'Ocean.' It's imperfect and just a demo recording, but I think of David when I work on the song and listen to it.

https://soundcloud.com/shakteem/ocean

By Kamala Devi 3 years 6 months ago

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David, I saw you as the Sun
Self-luminous, brilliant and beautiful
The rays of power that project from your eyes, words and gestures,
I feel them penetrating my heart
Like fire
Like honey
Like magnetic velvet
Touching more deeply than anything from any world.
David, if you are the sun I only want to be the moon
Forever
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David, because of your transmission my heart is becoming a sun
Full and expansive, a burning intensity

Because of your transmission my mind is becoming a moon
Full, with a gentle radiance which allows the seeing of that which was previously hidden
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“Just as the bee drinking the honey (alone) does not care for its odor, so the chitta which is always absorbed in Nada [i.e.: David’s transmission] does not long for sensual objects, as it is bound by the sweet smell [i.e.: feeling] of Nada and has abandoned its flitting nature."

Nada Bindu Upanishad, 42-43a

By Stephen 3 years 7 months ago

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In days of war he had seen the betrayal of the sons by the fathers,
seen the ravages of nationalism and its unfortunate patriotism.
He had run the full gamut of greed for women and gold,
seen his impoverishment in the field of human relationship.
In time he realized the folly of creating images of himself and others,
seen these delusions are the fountain of conflict.
In meditation he was attentive to the heart awaiting Mother's Grace,
seen sometimes silent heart open pure feeling peace and bliss.
But now the serpent power churned and biting in a lower realm,
seems to need an answer to an all absorbing question.

“What about the unforgivable?” said heavy with resentment and culpability,
for personal tragedy and the unforgivable by the body of humanity.
Then the flash of insight gracefully given light not reason or faith emotion,
as soldier in distress yearned raising Power with arrested breath.
And so to his Heart that Divine Energy that also birthed the unforgivable,
infilling Love as forgiveness not his but given exploding to the world.
Operation of Compassion always timeless elevating our human condition,
transforming everything to clarified registers of Being.
And so the paradox of pain and bliss a fallen warrior knowing beyond knowing,
the mystic meaning of Christ as always dying for our “sin”.

By jasalerno 3 years 7 months ago

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After listening to tonight's webcast I listened to some relaxing Zen music. The effect of the webcast carried over into the listening. I was aware of awareness, energy and love. The vibrations of this music gently hit up against this heart and flowed out in all directions.

By dianetn48 3 years 7 months ago

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For years I have felt as though my core is pure darkness. The more light I experienced in mediation the more pronounced the darkness felt. It seemed to hold my fears and depression. I didn't understand how others could only see the happy, joyful me when all I could see was that my core was black. I feared it because I thought it meant I was bad. Recently (within the past year) the depression I lived with for decades receded. I started having days where my thoughts didn't linger on death or just trying to get through the day. I was actually feeling good all day long, happy from deep within. I had happiness in the past but this was different. It wasn't colored by an underlying train of thought oriented around fear and depression. I thought the darkness had left and I could just enjoy living. I understood why people say they enjoy life.

As this state of just being able to enjoy life without a little voice in my head holding me back became "normal" I would catch glimpses of darkness around what feels like my core. I always associated this darkness with depression, anger and fear. During a meditative state I experienced this darkness as a tube of nothingness. It ran from my crown to my tail bone. It held nothing - no emotion, thought or sensations. It's essence feels very similar to Bliss but not quite the same flavor. Since experiencing this, it is as if I can now say that yes, I do have a core of darkness in me but it is not colored by negative "things". I can explore it without worrying that it will overwhelm me with sadness and feelings of not wanting to be alive. Maybe it is the "void" that so many yogis talk of. I will continue to explore and see where it leads me.

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