Utility

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When I first began sitting with David, I was distracted by the Shakti. I was so fascinated with how it stayed with me and came and went. I also was distracted by not wanting it to leave. At times, I thought about how remarkable that this Energy was permeating me.
After my first Intensive, I noticed a maternal aspect to the energy. After having dinner with David and friends, and driving from Los Angeles back to NorCal at night, all the way home, I felt lovingly looked after, imbued as if the Shakti were protecting me. Arrived home and climbing into bed, it was as if someone were lovingly holding me in blissful arms. I felt completely taken care of. Then.. then Shakti stayed with me for two weeks, and it was strong and uncanny. I thought this was remarkable, as I had been with other teachers, but never felt this. Shortly after David returned to NorCal, I began having spiritual experiences, the likes of which were never so strong, psychic and even otherworldly. Still, I was concerned that I was distracted by the experience of Shakti, more so than being aware of It as Consciousness, or expanding as Consciousness as I Am That. Shakti felt like more of an effect, rather than the source of my being, and I interpreted that it was David and not me.
Then, over the course of continually sitting with David, I began to be educated in Being, in Consciousness. At first, I was dense and asked questions that were lower level, such as "What's the relationship of personality to Enlightenment," and "Is there a space between the two that is seen, as one becomes more and more Enlightened. David's answers seemed beyond me. Again, I was so distracted by the Bliss, that I could scarcely hear and integrate what he was saying.
Things have slowly been changing. I realize that I have needed to be slowly cooked in this Transmission, and much more cooking is surely in store. Now, I don't search after Shakti the way I used too, and neither do I become distracted by it. It is always available just beyond the tip of the minds tongue-- which is being carried away so often. It is the Ever-Potential-Present-Moment of Being that is prior to "me" and the mind. It is Consciousness, calmly abiding. I don't need to do anything, rather, "IT," is what I don't do that causes "IT" to arise. I'm sure this is the same for many of you.
I am not as greedy any more. It's becoming more clear that this is thoroughly a matter of letting go, of listening, as it were, where the whole body/mind is like an ear, listening into the infinite potential of Existence, and beyond that into subtler and subtler domains. I have also realized that David is Always with me. The other night he said, that he doesn't experience us as separate from him-- separate body/minds. The Transmission has nothing whatsoever to do with our limited personalities and beliefs, NOTHING!

David said: "Existence itself is Love, Existence itself is thoughtless Samadhi, Existence itself is the movement of Shakti, or energy. For me these are all eternally emanating, all eternally radiating out of That, which I Am. So, for me this movement of Sahaja Samadhi is a multifaceted, and multidimensional consideration; it's not simply quietude, it is not something that is confined to some kind of experience. In fact, it has nothing to do with anything I experience. I could come out as an angry maniac, and still be radiating the full force of God. It has no connection at all with human individuality....That's my Realization."

The last three sentences have really begun to sink in, in the last couple of months, I've noticed IT clearly. The relationship to David is not confined to any experience I have, it was still present, no matter the mood, or manifestation, and had nothing to do with my individuality.
At the same time, I inevitably seem to continue to require being lead through experiences that further convince me that I don't need these experiences. I'm still susceptible to looking for signs, like the little child demanding that God reveal herself. I sometimes get desperate and impatient and feel like I'd better get Enlightened, or else(!), or that it better happen sooner than later, because I'm sick of this dumb-ass mind in the bardo (intermediate zone) where I continue to unconsciously create and suffer the illusion. But, the thing is, as David shows, and as Tibetan Masters have been saying, Enlightenment Is Continually Unobstructed and Present, Always, and in All-Ways. It is Consciousness, Itself.

I feel this when I am in the wonderful company of you all, as well, I feel a profound ambience of Union (yoga). Our hearts open together and we feel and realize that we are that Radiant Transcendent Love that outshines every contraction. We are revealed as beautiful flowers opening to the Sun of the Master. That Love is where we all reside, always. That Love reveals a potentiality that Transcends everything. It is what we've always wanted, and we begin to see that it is Real in a way beyond what we could have ever hoped for.

I can't possibly be anymore grateful about that.

Namaste to all.

Comments

Mike this was great stuff ! It resonated at so many levels. I didn't have to analyze or have any conjecture to experientially know what you were saying; for wont of a better word it was ,"wisdom speak", like a rare sutra. I sense you know that too, and I'm so happy for you and glad you shared this !

Namaste,
Mark Jackier

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Mark Jack

Thank you Michael! It is very helpful to be reminded, for me at least, that what ever we are or do "we" can still get this.

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Jussi