Utility

Blessed

Just before the webcast I had been struggling with feelings of despair about my life; with feelings of not belonging; of not being spiritually advanced enough to be a part of David's community... I was feeling utterly left out and infinitely lonely, sunk in a powerful vortex of negativity. During the webcast meditation I was feeling all this still. I simply couldn't get free of the vortex, although I kept returning to awareness of Davids' form sitting patiently with us. Then I suddenly felt as though I passed through his form into that Field of Compassion. I felt, almost physically, a comforting embrace that kept drawing me in. Each time the negativity vortex began to suck me back in it felt as if the embrace was pulling me out. I'd never felt any thing like that before during the meditations.

Then David answered a question at length and the words were so incredibly pertinent to much of what I'd been thinking/feeling recently that I was stunned. At the end he told us not to feel excluded or lonely (!), that we could participate in the Sedona retreat in our own home at the times when they're meditating there (which I plan to do when possible). The words were such a comfort. I felt wrapped in kindly blessings.