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By paul 8 years 7 months ago

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I thought you all would enjoy this photo I took of David's feet during a recent Friday night event in Larkspur, CA. I must have snapped a dozen shots of David that night but the picture he was most fond of is the picture posted below. Notice how David's feet come together in a mudra.

As you all probably know, the Guru's feet are very significant in many traditions. The feet of the Guru is where the "Divine in form" touches the earth. In Hinduism it's very common to see devotees performing puja on the Guru's feet. It is widely understood (and experienced) that the Guru's feet are a tremendously potent channel of Spiritual Transmission.

I found the following definition of Guru's feet from a Siddha Yoga Glossary at http://www.siddhayoga.org/glossary.aspx

The Indian scriptures revere the Guru's feet, which are said to embody Shiva and Shakti, knowledge and action, the emission and reabsorption of creation. Powerful vibrations of shakti flow from the Guru's feet. They are a mystical source of grace and illumination, and a figurative term for the Guru's teachings.

By ocean 8 years 7 months ago

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My desire to meet David in person became very strong over time. I was immersed in Bhakti, my heart was overflowing with longing. I felt as if David had given me everything, even though I live overseas. I knew that sudden realizations are spontaneous and when I had been given the grace to meet David, I came without expectations or assumptions about what might happen.

Before meeting David, I travelled in the United States and had some experiences that others might consider exciting. I however, felt quite the opposite - that my dispassion (Viragya) towards life only grew during my travels, and it did not matter whether I was "having fun" or not. It mattered only what state of consciousness I was in. Only the Self can bring divinity into an experience, otherwise it would be shallow, and there will always be a bitter taste to it of dissatisfaction.

So actually, during my travels and before meeting David, the highlights of those travels were the internet satsangs with him. This was the only thing that felt deep enough. Internet satsangs were a beautiful gift and release to the mind that could not be initiated by any other experience. Even an intense practice could not lead to this degree of intoxication.
It was quite remarkable how I managed to attend those meetings on time, as I have been in isolated places where I thought I would never find a Wi-Fi connection. It was grace. The universe helped me fulfill my desire to be around David.

During most of my travels, and months before it, I had been waiting to attend a live meeting with David. I was totally excited about seeing David, and couldn't think of anything else.
Finally, this moment came and I saw David before me. God, this was a divine moment, I felt like meeting "the Mother". I will not forget this sacred moment of meeting him after so much longing. David was looking beautiful, with hypnotizing blue eyes. I thought that his lovely image represented divinity. There is always something different about the eyes of enlightened persons, but with David it is hard to miss those unworldly eyes.

In these meetings, I met Orley and other people that I have known "virtually" online, and was very delighted to see them. The Sangah is lovely and I was surprised to find out how mature the people are in their spiritual processes. The strong Bhakti of this group touched me very deeply. I also enjoyed talking to David. How can it be more perfect? A spiritual teacher who is open minded, not a bit conservative, with a developed social awareness. It seems like he was contemplating deeply every aspect of worldly life, and gained a lot of knowledge, which resulted in an evolved and unique personality. I felt as if my thinking, conclusion process and views about the world are similar to David's, and it was pleasant to feel close to him also in this way.

My mind was for a period of time in the foreground area of awareness during meetings. It is usually more active when there are people around (however nice they may be). But even at times when the Shakti intoxication was partial during meetings, it always became full a few hours later, when the mind became relaxed. The energies were very fiery in those meetings! I cannot even describe verbally the intensity I felt.

David is divine, the greatest master….

There were also strong longings for David between satsangs. Not being around David, I literally felt as if a part of me was missing. The sweet pain of craving the divine was sensed through the heart and the whole body. I remember one time when these longings were unbearable, my heart was overflowing, crying for David. That day I was driving to Jenner, moving from beach to beach. I knew that David likes Goat Rock Beach, and was curious to find out what might happen there. When I arrived at night, something extraordinary happened - the Shakti, sensed as pure fire, washed over and through me. I felt as if I was that Source of Fire, or an enourmous power station. It was amazingly strong. I was just sitting in my car in the mysterious night near the exploding waves of the ocean, and sensed my head exploding with fire (or maybe there was no head at all).
At the very start of this Shakti activation, the unbearable longings stopped and turned into a deep sweetness of security and relaxation. I knew that David was there with me, and that form or distance didn't matter.

When my travel was close to its end, I felt sad, even a kind of grief. I felt like crying every time I passed through the area where David lives. There was too much intensity of feeling! Sometimes I wished to drive south and not deal with the pain of seeing those road signs. My mind started to plan how to come back and there was a tension to set everything up. But every time I remembered the grace that brought me to David, there was faith in life again, that it will unfold right, without planning on my behalf. When I came back to Israel, I felt more relaxed about it. I realized how much I missed sitting at night (4 or 5 AM) with my computer in solitude and feel the Shakti in the utter silence of the night. The intensity of Shakti, as I experience it, is not weaker through the internet. For me it is even stronger at times, since my mind enables the Shakti, under these conditions, to freely circulate. So I suppose that it depends on one's tendencies, rather than on distance (I was curious about this, since some devotees commented that a personal meeting is more intense).
However, one thing that I feel is hard to deal with from a distance is the lack of intensives and more frequent meetings. There is so much longing from Fridays to Wednesdays. I am so grateful with the gift of meeting David twice a week through webcasts. So much has already been given. I'm still wishing to fill the rest of the week with David's living presence.

I still can't tell how the experience of being a month with David influenced me, and I'm not sure if I will ever know. I'm endlessly grateful for this grace. It was unforgettable. It was a dreamlike experience. It truly took me time to believe and feel that it all really happened. I feel that I was drawn by David into a different reality, a colorful one of light, love and circulating Shakti. When David was talking about himself as "the Mother", I suddenly felt that this was the name to all my recent experiences. When he was talking about the Avatar and the Guru, it made sense why I was feeling that something was lacking with other teachers. The intensive in Petaluma was unforgettable, David's lovely craziness reached a peak.
Reality is crazy with the Mother, and I like it. This is the fullness of life. Focusing merely on Shiva is indeed a compromise. The amazement from David's realization and teachings just grows over time. I love everything about him.
It seems strange that spiritual seekers around the world do not recognize the treasure in front of them, the ultimate gift given with much love for anyone who would like to recieve it (but maybe it's better this way ;)).

By michael ortega 8 years 7 months ago

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I excerpt this quote from David's writing, 'The Fire Beyond Self-Realization'( which is available to be read at DavidSpero.org).

"In Self-realization the emotions were transcended. In a sense, there was nothing you could really feel in that Self-realized state that could really make a significant impact, any significant impact in your Awareness. But once the Self “fades,” then the identification with the Absolute dissolves. By the way, it doesn’t dissolve existentially. I want to be very clear about this. It doesn’t dissolve in reality. Only the sensation, the experience of It fades. Okay? You’ve got it? Only the experience of It fades.

The emotions are then set free in that vast silence, where they panic - the feelings panic because the nature of feeling is to want an object. Feeling always wants an object. It’s its nature; it’s its beautiful, exquisite, relational nature. So it craves “the Other.” It craves, really, the Beloved, at that point, the forgotten Beloved Self. But if existentially you are nothing but the Self, what can the feelings really do? Where really can they go to find this “Other,” this Beloved?

The feelings begin to combust. It’s really the introduction to a maddening state. Have you ever been in love? I mean, have you ever really been taken with someone? You know what happens! You can’t get them out of your head. You can’t get them out of your mind. It’s just like the Absolute that you once experienced in nirvana and the processes leading up to nirvana – the whole process of glimpsing, re-glimpsing until you become the Glimpser. Now this whole thing gets re-enacted in the field of feeling. Feeling is craving the Supreme Beloved, the Adorable One. But, it’s already in a nondual state (that was achieved in Self-realization, right?). I’m going to keep going back and forth so you understand. I don’t want to lose you.

The emotions begin to heat up, profoundly. It’s a discomforting state of aggravated feeling. In fact, you could even say, that the essential aspects of every emotion are activated – anger, fear, sorrow – but in an illumined state.

The human being naturally begins to be turned on itself in a most enthralling manner. You’ve felt deep sexual passion, deep sexual desire? It’s like that. Only, where is it going to go? There’s no “other.” So the feelings begin to really feel themselves for the very first time."

I am noticing this exact experience. I noticed yesterday in the intensive, and today. I felt it while sitting with David, yesterday, and on the break when speaking with people, and alone today while meditating. My feelings go into an intense craving for an unknowable expression, like craving an “Other”, but this desire is bewildering, because no action with an Other, would satisfy this desire, at least not in any conventional sense. It’s like wanting to reach out to different people and commune with them in ecstatic, primal joy (not to be taken too literally!), a thoroughly deconditioned ecstasy that is boundless. But the desire doesn’t work out in any concrete sense because such desire in the physical world wouldn’t be plausible, or rational, or even real. It's a reaching out through Consciousness for an unknown culmination. David's metaphor of the child going crazy with joy playing with the toy is quite apt. No expression I can think of will satisfy this feeling, but it remains. It really is “ a discomforting state of aggravated feeling." So I suppose I am "feeling feelings feeling themselves," as David says. There is nothing to do with with it, which is bewildering. It is directionless.

I shared this with David and his response was:

"Yes, what is described here is the equivalancy of utter Self-Expansion (read "Realization" here) on the level of the emotions, or, you could also say, the Self beginning to filter in into the feeling-body. It's what the Self 'feels like' to that part of the being."

By Suma 8 years 7 months ago

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Found this beautiful Poem on internet and wanted to share with everyone:

The guided breath surrendered to the deity of bliss
The mind in its awareness gripping form to be spirit
The fire beyond the mind laying forth the body as the mundane finite

The three of oneness as past, present and future breaking into the infinite now
The three having become- the one as within the 'body' nourishing the form; the one knowing space as realms of presence; and the one tending heart's fire in the inner heart shrine
dancing as the resonance...eeeee...and guiding the breath to ignite and grow the muladhara fire to be set free!

Breath guided as the mind plunges below within the inhale to stroke up the kundalini fire
there.. becoming.. and indulging in the pleasure of silence, gently climb back to resume the love-seat between the eyebrows.. the divine threshold
.....dance in this joy of light
.. .........in this is the grand union that reveals
.................She as Mahakali !!!
.......................Her mind-child as the surrendered mind awake.
............................detached, all is love and fulfilled.
.......................................love as to know her.
..............................................goodness conquers
........................................................as the yogi's breath.

To the yogi, the Mother!
Sparkling to be found!
The joy of light becoming!!!

By michael ortega 8 years 7 months ago

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In one of the latest videos that David posted to YouTube, which is entitled 'Tantra, Kundlini Shakti, Alchemy.' David said:

" Shakti is like a magnet to restful silence. Shakti will emerge out of empty Shiva, quiet Shiva, relaxed Shiva; so what we're looking for is the marriage of Shiva and Shakti. We want to feel how they interpenetrate, we want to feel our own Being making love to Itself, which is the highest form of Tantra. It is what all Tantra points to; the inner alchemical transformation, whereby the energy within your own Being makes love to Itself."

In an earlier blog, I wrote that:

"The true Master introduces you into the highest potentialities of Consciousness so that you might know that the one who asks a question inwardly is the one who answers it--that you are That. There is a masculine and feminine alchemy to this process. In the Tantric scriptures this is often symbolized by Shiva and Parvati, or Shakti. Parvati asks Shiva for instruction and Initiation into the nature of Ultimate Reality, and Shiva answers."

This entire dialogue takes place in our own Consciousness. Just as the dialogue between Krishna and Arjuna takes place in our own Consciousness. Between the Higher Self and the lower sense of identity, or between Silence and Energy. Osho speculated that the entire dialogue between Krishna and Arjuna took place in an instant; that no words were exchanged, that perhaps Krishna looked at Arjuna and this entire teaching took place with that look. It seems that these stories are all metaphors for what is actually happening in Consciousness, when Consciousness becomes subtle enough to notice, or allow for the possibility that this can happen; then it can begin making love to Itself. Silence and Energy come together like the male and female deities in Tantric embrace. All of these stories, and images are emblematic signs of actual esoteric events within Consciousness as it becomes more and more refined in meditation.

" The Self, which is present in every form and is self-luminous, does both the questioning and answering itself as if by dividing itself into questioner and the answerer itself, both being itself at the same time."
-Abhinavagupta ( quote taken from 'Kashmir Shaivism', The Central Philosophy of Tantrism, by Kamalakar Mishra, 1999

Thus every event, all spiritual awakening, all understanding, all Transmission from the Teacher takes place in Consciousess. The logical mind may be employed, but always within the context of Consciousness, of the silence of Shiva and the pulsating Shakti. This is where the true communication resides, in Being-Consciousness- Bliss, known in sanskrit as Satchitananda. This is actually outside of the time of cause and effect and logic, it is non-linear, acausal, atemporal. It is samadhi,

Here is a quote from the Wikipedia page on samadhi, which you all might find interesting -if you have not yet read it.

"Samadhi is the main subject of the first part of the Yoga Sutras called Samadhi-pada. According to Vyasa, a major figure in Hinduism and one of the traditional authors of the Mahabharata, "yoga is samadhi." This is generally interpreted to mean that Samadhi is a state of complete control (samadhana) over the functions and distractions of consciousness.
Samadhi is described in different ways within Hinduism such as the state of being aware of one’s Existence without thinking, in a state of undifferentiated “Beingness" or as an altered state of consciousness that is characterized by bliss (ananda) and joy (sukha).
Furthermore, samadhi has been categorised as:
Laya Samadhi
Savikalpa Samadhi
Nirvikalpa Samadhi
Sahaja Samadhi
Laya Samadhi is a latent ("laya"), potential level of samadhi. It begins in deep meditation or trance—even with movement, such as dancing. This kind of samadhi is a state of joy, deep and general well-being, and peaceful meditation.
Savikalpa Samadhi refers to the initial temporary state of full-valued samadhi. The conscious mind is still active, as is the kalpa, meaning imagination. One should compare this meaning to that of sankalpa, which is "wish." Kalpa takes on a different, but related, meaning to sankalpa because one must use imagination or consciousness (kalpa) to envision a wish or desire (sankalpa). Conversely, vikalpa means "against imagination." At this final level of samadhi, the mind has become quiet and given up its desires and attendant. Vikalpa leads to the Truth, releasing one from any binds of mind (which are mostly imaginations). In Savikalpa Samadhi, we get the taste of Bliss and Beingness, but are still attached to our erroneous identification with the body as well as to our numerous worldly attractions.
Nirvikalpa Samadhi is the highest transcendent state of consciousness. In this state there is no longer mind, duality, or subject-object relationship or experience. [3] Upon entering Nirvikalpa Samadhi, the differences we saw before have faded and we can see everything as one. In this condition nothing but pure Awareness remains and nothing is missing to take away from Wholeness and Perfection.
Entering samadhi in the beginning takes effort and holding on to a state of samadhi takes even more effort. The beginning stages of samadhi (Laya and Savikalpa Samadhi) are only temporary. By "effort" it is not meant that the mind has to work more. Instead, it means work to control the mind and release the self. Note that normal levels of meditation (mostly the lower levels) can be held automatically, as in "being in the state of meditation" rather than overtly "meditating." The ability to obtain positive results from meditation is much more difficult than simply meditating. It is recommended to find a qualified spiritual master (guru or yogi) who can teach a meditator about the workings of the mind.
Samadhi is the only stable unchanging reality; all else is ever-changing and does not bring everlasting peace or happiness.
Staying in Nirvikalpa Samadhi is effortless but even from this condition one must eventually return to ego-consciousness. Otherwise, this highest level of Samadhi leads to Nirvana, which means total Unity and the logical end of individual identity (and also death of the body). However, it is entirely possible to stay in Nirvikalpa Samadhi and yet be fully functional in this world. This condition is known as Sahaja Nirvikalpa Samadhi or Sahaja Samadhi. Only the truly Enlightened can be and remain spontaneously free.
In Nirvikalpa Samadhi, all attachment to the material world is dissolved. All awareness is withdrawn step by step from the physical, astral and causal bodies until self-realization or oneness with the soul is achieved. During this process, breathing ceases and the heart stops beating[citation needed]. Aware and fully conscious oneness with soul is then achieved in a most loving way, and all cells of the physical body are flooded with the Ocean of Divine Love and Divine Bliss for any period of duration—hours, days, weeks, until the individual shifts his awareness from the soul back to the physical body. Being fully functional in this world, his awareness stays in connection with the Divine. But some "strange" conditions accompany this state—better health (the body is sustained by Divine Grace), better feelings (even for other people who may contact the body which the enlightened soul has reidentified with) and various miraculous happenings may occur in connection with the Enlightened one.
[edit]In Bhakti
The Vaishnava Bhakti Schools of Yoga define Samadhi as "complete absorption into the object of one's love (Krishna)." Rather than thinking of "nothing," true samadhi is said to be achieved only when one has pure, unmotivated love of God. Thus samadhi can be entered into through meditation on the personal form of God, even while performing daily activities a practitioner can strive for full samadhi.
"Anyone who is thinking of Krsna always within himself, he is first-class yogi." If you want perfection in yoga system, don't be satisfied only by practicing a course of asana. You have to go further. Actually, the perfection of yoga system means when you are in samadhi, always thinking of the Visnu form of the Lord within your heart, without being disturbed... Controlling all the senses and the mind. You have to control the mind, control the senses, and concentrate everything on the form of Vishnu. That is called perfection of yoga" - A. C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada [4]
"Meditation means to absorb your mind in the Supreme Personality of Godhead. That is meditation, real meditation. In all the standard scriptures and in yoga practice formula, the whole aim is to concentrate one's mind in the Supreme Personality of Godhead. That is called samadhi, samadhi, ecstasy. So that ecstasy is immediately brought by this chanting process. You begin chanting and hear for the few seconds or few minutes: you immediately become on the platform of ecstasy." - A. C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada [5]"

Here is the link to that page, as well as to Satchitananda.