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By Stephen 11 months 3 weeks ago

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Before and since a recent intensive with David, I have contemplated the teachings of J. Krishnamurti, the refutation of JK by U.G. Krishnamurti and this rumination as it is clarified by the transmission of David Spero. I mean my phenomenological clarification of “being in the world”, to use the language of philosophy. I prefer to call what happens in his company “spiritual awakening”, allowing the language of spiritual apprehension inaccessible to the intellect, to thought.

JK uses the term “actuality”. In my opinion, his “actuality” is more explicitly “Non-Duality” or “Absolute Being”, again using language more mystical, although speaking from the philosophical context of Advaita Vedanta. Actuality, for JK as I understand him, includes the limited field of thought, but the reverse is not entirely the case. Thought itself is a fragmented duality: the multiplicity of thoughts regarding oneself, the subject, with the multiplicity of thoughts about the world, objects of knowledge. Actuality, Absolute Being, is unknowable in the dualistic limitations of thought. Actuality, nonetheless, is fundamental to the content of thought, as JK says, “thought is the content of consciousness”. So “actuality” is also that in excess of thought, more than this content. The unifying “actuality” can be a novel phenomenological experience, of “being in the world”, the teacher JK asserts, if the brain undergoes a radical transformation, a mutation, that occurs in continuous attention, and attention to inattention, ending the fragmenting experience of duality. Duality is perpetuated in our thought-world, as our “reality”. JK says reality is “all that put together by thought”. Ultimately, nonetheless, subjectivity is not merely the consciousness of thoughts about oneself, but the consciousness of actuality, or as I prefer to call it, Absolute Being. Aphoristically, his teaching is expressed as “the knower is the known”, or “we are the world”. JK teaches that “insight” occurs during an effort at attention, revealing a novel phenomenological existence for the individual making that effort. Insight is produced not as a result of that effort, but as clarification of “what is”. One “sees” actuality.

U.G., however, completely rejects the possibility of doing anything or receiving anything from anyone, JK or any so-called teacher or guru, so as to bring into a phenomenological experience the “actuality”. U.G. lived what he calls the “natural state”, obviously also something novel vis-à-vis what we might call normal human individuality. However, he insists such a state is acausal. Nothing can be done by anybody or to anybody to obtain such a state. Even though U.G. went through a radical physical transformation he calls “the calamity”, he says that he was just “lucky”. This, even though he had long practiced meditation related techniques (sadhana) and had practiced years in the company of JK, listening to his teachings. Yes, he was "lucky", but he also did a lot of sadhana, useless as it may be, apparently! I think the personal presentation by U.G. unattractive. What he exemplified is much better read in his edited teaching in the book "The Mystique of Enlightenment - The Radical Ideas of U.G. Krishnamurti". Reading this recently, I came face to face with the futility U.G. is always pointing to: what I am, is it, I am stuck in the JK “reality” as it is. Even though my “reality” has been getting enhanced by clearer insight in a conception of “actuality”, U.G. is convincing. Anything I think I can do, or I think can be done by somebody else for me is just another construction of thought. I cannot escape the compelling presentation of our individual existence by U.G.. Our “being in the world” as an acausal condition is perhaps only understandable as a conditioned state that emerged for no reason in the evolution of humanity. If this indeed is all there is to actuality, it hasn't the purpose demanded by my desire.

So now I come to my awakening as impacted by David's transmission. I cannot but “see” JK is correct that the knower is also the known. I also accept as U.G. points out, that this insight, clarifying as it is to this point, still remains a unification in the field of thought. It has a beauty, but I remain seeking another novel phenomenology. Important is that JK also says there is no path or way of transcending “reality”, yet “actuality” operates in a pathless way, and has an entirely different action by which we can receive insight, being effortlessly attentive. JK calls it the “mutation of the brain”, after which he says he was a “freak”. U.G. called transformation “the calamity”, and his subsequent condition a more friendly term, “the natural state”. JK taught that we are to find out for ourselves what happens during attention to the fact that “we are the world”, another formulation of “the knower is the known”. U.G. said don't listen to anyone, not even himself, or most of all, not himself or oneself, and be free of any hope of anything but what you are – perhaps you may undergo some radical change, but the “natural state” is not something anyone would want. Neither U.G, or JK assume any role in the transformation of those who come to them. I feel left yearning for such a transformation to occur, but understanding there is nothing I can do. David, however, states explicitly that he was born to be the vehicle of the operation or action of the Absolute as an omnipresent transmission that manifests a radical change in people. David says this happens, over an indeterminate period of time, in the state of those who enter into a relationship with him. In the language of mysticism, or more specifically the using the term we find in Vedanta, only an “Avatar” manifests such a function. Some may say that this spiritual transmission was also spontaneous in the company of JK or U.G.. I think perhaps that is true, but I only I find it clearly in David, having been fortunate enough to enter into a personal relationship with him.

In his book “Easy Grace – Meditations on Love, Awakening & the Ecstatic Heart”, David provides a powerful presentation of the meaning of being in his company, and so experiencing what the Vedanta tradition calls “Satsang”. In the U.G. book I mentioned, he points out that seeking enlightenment itself is the root of one's not operating in the already existing "natural state". This false expectation of getting something, or being something that you are not already, is what he means by the mystique of enlightenment. It is desire itself that makes us opaque, limited from what we desire. In David's book, we are reading transcriptions from his extemporaneous talks, much of them in intensives such as we just had. I am saying the reader of those pages can experience some flavor of what is found in David's actual company. My experience of “Satsang'' is David showing us that the opaque phenomenological condition we experience is, in fact, porous. My tangible intuition is he is not just saying that the egocentric desire intrinsic in our lives is to be eroded through the efforts of renunciation and negation, by sadhana characterized by intense attention and self-effort. He demonstrates the Light of the Absolute shining in duality, penetrating and inclusive of the structures of desire. In this Satsang, there is an energetic impact on the state of being of the listeners. This action of the Absolute is shown to us only by an Avatar, through the mandala of seekers receiving that transmission. It is mysterious, but there is no mystique. The word “Avatar” is applied simply because it is only such a physical being, who qualifies as such. Only the Avatar has become a material vehicle generating a mutation in the being, in the physical and mental and emotional body, of those who enter Satsang. In Satsang, all delusions are deconstructed and something unfathomable occurs. Such delusion actually prevents almost anyone from even seeking such company. Even if we do, we may be more or less opaque, demanding an objective experience, an absurd expectation of the Absolute. Such has been my own situation. This veil is what is removed only by the action of the Absolute, what I prefer to call the Divine Mother's Grace. Though on the one hand, it seems my sadhana continues, on the other hand, it is only the Love between David and myself which does and can destroy the limitations in my self-delusion, by grace, and only by Her inscrutable Way.

Beneficial phenomenological experiences get manifested and reported by participants in Satsang . This happens not just during meditation, or quiet listening, but also in dialog with David, and quite often through exquisite humor and hard laughter. Though perhaps helpful, relationships with many spiritual teachers are fraught with deception and self-deception, as U.G. says. Yet the Avatar is another register of relationship, demonstrating impeccable Divine Love! This is not a matter faith or belief in David, the individual person with his normal frailties. It is astounding to me that he says that he is oblivious to the way the Absolute operates in his appearances as Feminine Power, that he is not at all wanting to know – not demanding in the least any objective experience. Ironically, it would be his absurd expectation of the Absolute to be somebody that operates as Divine Mother! Nonetheless, there David is, appearing for Satsang, a revelation to all in attendance of their own enlightenment! It is a matter of directly experiencing, even in the face of one's own skepticism or self-doubt as it were. Every time I go to these events it is a shattering experience leaving me at a new register of being in Being. It is a profound thing to witness the same thing happening to so many others at the same time, each person in their own unique way. There are a variety of personality types. They represent a number of “spiritual” attitudes, some having practiced for decades in the line of other great teachers or even earlier Avatars. We also find present other adherents such as academics, psychotherapists, and artists. It is amazing that all seem to find themselves, in the end, in a state of profound gratitude, as if they have come to a strange wish-fulfilling tree. Every intensive event has a kind of sameness in that it is like coming to a place that makes our life what the Avatar Sri Ramakrishna called “a mansion of mirth”, an ocean of feeling, of Love. David calls it Shakti-Intensified, Bliss-Permeated and Nectarous Non-Duality.

By Sophia 1 year 2 weeks ago

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Felt so good in David's morning Webcast. Felt so satisfied in David's evening Webcast that I didn't want it to ever end. Pranams, Beloved.

-Kathleen

By Sophia 1 year 3 weeks ago

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Thank you David for gazing into the camera. Your gaze penetrated through ignorance straight through to clarity. My heart opened and realized it's love for you. I didn't know what I'd been longing for. This is it. To love You. I bow before you Great Teacher.

-Kathleen

By Flower 1 year 1 month ago

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Deep,
within the heart of one drop
lies all the love of the entire ocean,

By Flower 1 year 1 month ago

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Beloved,
by your side i have remember how to trust in myself
with your divine example of pure presence i have learned how to offer myself
Your divine nectar has melted all the ignorance around me
All my hungers are satisfied, so now i just want to look for others too
like the eternal flower of beauty who is given for those who truly want to be free,
like the light of the moon in the night that is reflecting in the sea
for the plenitud and happiness of the uni-verse,
forever.......

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